Kaya ko pa ba?

Kaya ko pa ba panindigan ang bawat oras na wala ka.

Oras na tila hindi tatakbo kapag andyan ka.

Segundo humihinto sa iyong matamis na ngiti.

Minuto tumitigil sa tuwing kasama ka.

Araw na tila ay wala ng hanggan basta’t nandyan ka.

Pero ang tanong, kaya ko ba?

Kaya ko ba tanggapin na andito na tayo sa dulo.

Sa huli na hindi natin parehong gusto na wakasan.

Parang lumulubog na araw na wala nang bukas.

Isang hamon na pilit na ipaglaban kahit ang pagsuko na lang ang kulang.

Buong akala natin sapat na ang tayo pero kahit ang pagmamahal, hindi parin.

Kaya, andito na tayo sa dulo.

Dulo na pilit natin pinapahaba sa bawat paalam.

Pilit na sinasagot ang mga tanong natin.

May magagawa pa ba? May maisasalba pa ba?

Kaya pa ba bumangon sa lumubog na damdamin?

Kaya pa ba? kaya mo ba?

Hangga’t dito sa dulo wala paring sagot.

Tila ang isang sagot ay isang pagkakamali.

Sa huling pagkakataon na uulitin ko ang tanong,

paninindigan ba natin o bibitiw na?



There’s something there that wasn’t there before

via Daily Prompt: Gratitude


Talking about gratitude makes me remember the line of the song “something there” from the movie Beauty and the Beast. Hence, the title of this blog post.

Every new day is something we should be thankful for even in the midst of circumstances that are beyond or within our control. Even if we have routine-kind of days in a week, there’s always something new every single day. And it is something that we should highly appreciate it for the days to come. Every day is a brand new opportunity to be better than yesterday. Another day to live our life is one of the reasons for us to feel thankful and appreciate such gift.

Gratitude can be in any form of being thankful for others or the favors you receive in your end. May this be a job promotion, passing grades or just a smile from a stranger. Anything can do as long as it makes you feel better even bad times can be something we can be thankful for because trials made us stronger.

Anything can be a source of gratitude because the moment it comes into our lives, nothing can be the same again. Hence, the line of “there’s something there that wasn’t there before”. In the movie (if you’ve seen it. The latest adaptation), Belle learns to appreciate the good side of Beast as time goes by. In real life, with or without reason, there’s always to be thankful for.

For me, gratitude is a feeling of being thankful and pleased at the same time. To feel the act of gratitude starts with ourselves before we can feel gratitude for others. Everything starts within and glows within.

I stumbled upon a quote posted in instagram that says, “when life is sweet say thank you and celebrate and when life is bitter stay thank you and grow.” Gratitude is not only for the things in your favor, it can be the other way around. It will make difference in how you see things.

Just like “change begins in me”, gratitude begins in me. It’s a matter of perspective and paying forward the goodness to the world.

Feeling surreal

via Daily Prompt: Surreal
Getting personal with feelings.

Admit it.

Once or twice in this lifetime, you’ll meet a person who will give you feelings that are surreal and for that reason, you overthink. You started to doubt yourself if whether or not it is real in this world full of uncertainties.  You end up weighing the pros and cons of the person but sometimes ourselves are bias, we tend to lend on the idea of that person based on our own judgment. As crazy as it is, you play this judgment of yours like your favorite song and even turn a blind eye from all the reality bearing flaws.

Your judgment casts a cloud on your perception of the person. You already confused idea from reality.

At one point, a question popped out into your reverie: “Is this the crazy little thing called love?”

How are you going to find out if the feelings are surreal?

How will you figure out if that person’s action seems too good to be true?

How will you know if you’ve fallen in love if there is clouded reality?

Are you going to take the risk and fall?


Are you going to stay in the sidelines while figuring out?

The choices you’ll make will either break or make you.

Choose wisely, love selflessly.

Because choosing to fall in love in this world full of conflicted contradiction is one tough fight.

And I hope I made the right choice.

More than just the name

via Daily Prompt: Identity


Yesterday, I posted about “Be the trademark in this world full of trademark infringement” where I put emphasis on self-trademark as our own identity. My previous posts also touch on establishing identity and giving self-importance. Today’s prompt gave us the word “identity” and it is definitely more than just the name.

One’s identity can never be just a name since names are generic. A lot of people around the world shares the same name with yours and you can’t do anything about that. Fortunately, your identity is beyond your name and it is your own choice to set your identity.

Identity per se should go beyond one’s social status and influence to his or her community. Identity should be based on who you really are as a person and what you really are. Those aspirations, shared dreams and anything that makes someone remembers you which turns into a long-lasting memory to that person and identifies you with it.

Identity goes beyond your opinions and political views, not even your own sense of style can constitute identity.

On this millenial era, identity  should be what we shared to the people around us. A part that you let others to learn who and what you are.

Identity should be in depth to ourselves, not just on what they see on the outside.

Be the “Trademark” in this world full of Trademark infringement


Upon seeing the email for today’s prompt on the word “Trademark”, the first thing that came into my mind was our lesson in Special Commercial Law about Intellectual Property Law on Trademark.

Trademark, as defined by law and in layman’s term, is a recognizable sign, design, or expression which identifies products or services of a particular source from those of others.

Trademark does not only apply to Intellectual Property Law but also to ourselves. Yes, you read it right: Ourselves.

Trademark is like how we established the “first impression” to others. It is how we managed in branding ourselves to the community; an invisible sign which makes a distinct impression about us, though these impressions can be flattering or not.

Like what they said, “first impression lasts” but it can be a total u-turn, once you’ve met the person.

In the millenial age or our present time, we’ve seen people trying to impersonate or copy somebody just to feel good on themselves to the extent of pushing their own uniqueness in the dark. A lot of people trying to be somebody by copying everything about that person to the extent of annoying the said person. At first, it may be flattering but in the long run, it became creepy and sends warning alarms all over your senses. I’m not saying that it is not okay to idolize somebody on how they established their self-branding but going over board and be like them in all means is not normal at all.

Trademark is like an identity; one that makes you unique from others. Copying somebody’s trademark is losing one’s self. It’s like infringing the identity of others because you wanted to be like them in every detail. In the process, you lose your sense of self while trying somebody that you’re not. We all know a copy cat will never be as good as the original.

Thus, it is important that we strive hard to be the best version of ourselves without trying to be somebody else. We have to be stay true to what we are because our uniqueness is something that can make us stand in the crowd full of trying to be someone else.

In this world full of trademark infringement, be the trademark. Be your own self. And I think that it is something worth-having than being identified to be someone else. Our flaws and strengths make us who we are and what we are.


Dear self, susuko ka na nga ba?

This was an intended blog post way back  1st sem, First year (2015) in Law school. I didn’t remember I have this one until I saw it saved in my google drive.

“See you next year sa Crim law 1 take 2!” Patawa na sabi namin sa isa’t-isa pagkatapos ng final exam namin sa Criminal Law 1. Itinawa na lang namin ang problema na tila hinampas sa amin sa harap pero todo deny parin kami. Oo, pinilit namin na idaan lahat sa biro kahit deep inside nakakapanghihinayang at napakasakit.

Masakit. Masakit ang bumagsak for the first time in my 21 years of existence. Nakakapanibago dahil naipasa ko nga ang first board exam ng psychometrician na wala kaming ideya sa lalabas pero ang criminal law 1 na isang semester pinag-aralan namin pero hindi ko parin nagawang ipasa kahit sa midterms man lang at sigurado ako na hindi ko rin naipasa ang final exam.

Saan nga ba ako nagkulang?

Kung mas pinag-igihan ko pa kaya ang pagmemorize ng provisions baka naipasa ko? O di kaya, kung mas sinaulo ko pa ang mga ganap  at dinigest ng maayos  ang  assign cases, naitawid ko kaya? O kung nag volunteer ako sa recitations sa mga pagkakataon na pwede mag volunteer?

Aminado naman ako nagkulang ako. Ayoko sisihin si Judge kung bakit ganyan kahirap ang exams niya. Sabi nga niya, “Walang personalan.” Tama naman siya. Kaya hindi ko siya sinisisi sa problema na ako lang ang may alam kung paano makabawi.

Ang tanong, Kaya ko pa ba? Dear Self, susuko ka na ba?

Ang isang tanong na tila bumabagabag simula nang na-feel ko ang lahat ng hirap sa Law school. Akala ko madali, akala ko pwede na ang efforts ko pero hindi pa pala. Isang maling akala. Wala naman kasi nagsabi sa akin na mahirap maitawid ang lahat ng ganap sa law school. Sobrang hirap na tila gusto mo na mag withdraw right at that moment pero hindi ko ginawa.

Hindi ako masochista para mag enjoy na masaktan at lalong lalo hindi ako sadista na gusto manakit. Isa lang akong simpleng babae na may pangarap maging isang tanyag na abogada.

I know that studying law wouldn’t be easy like a piece of cake. And I admit truly that my best wasn’t good enough.

At ang bumagsak sa isang subject ay hindi na panibago.

Alam niyo yung feeling na naibigay mo na ang lahat pero hindi parin sapat? Yan ang nafefeel ko kapag nag aaral ako sa criminal law. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nahihirapan ako. Naging madali naman ang PERSONS at CONSTI LAW 1 pero pagdating sa Crim hindi ko magawa.

Pero kahit ganun, patuloy parin ang buhay.

Aminado naman kasi ako na nagkulang ako sa unang semester sa law school. Ang efforts ko ay pang mediocre at ito ang naging puno’t dulo ng pagkakamali ko. Sana ay naitama ko na mas maaga pero hindi eh, hinayaan ko lang at pinagsisihan ko. I intended to lose my hope and passively give up when I know I’m losing. Nasaan na ba ang babae na palaban noon? Nasaan na ba ang babae who enrolled Organic Chemistry section for chemistry majors and manage to survived? Nasaan na ba ako sa punto ng buhay ko?


After two years, andito parin ako sa Law school, fighting to third year irregular status. Same school pa din and felt relieved that I survived one of the hardest semester that I had after the time this post was intended. I also manage to passed all my criminal law subjects. One take na ako sa criminal law 2. I learned from my mistake and brave enough to try again. Naisip ko nga if I quit, nasaan na nga ako ngayon? Pagsisihan ko rin ba na hindi ako nagpatuloy?

Pahirap ng pahirap na ang law school but andito parin ako, nagpakatatag para sa pamilya ko at para sa bayan. I know this is my destiny. It is just a matter of time when will this destiny be fulfilled. Definitely, it will be on God’s perfect time. This law school setbacks is a preparation for a major comeback that you will emerged victorious.

May random moments na naiisip ko ang panghihinayang sa pagkakataon na sinayang ko. But I always believe in everything happens for a reason and we always have our perfect time. Hindi man yan ngayon pero alam mo na dadarating yan. We have our own moments of “breakdown to breakthrough”. And this is the reason why I keep going with this destiny.

As Howie Day’s Collide song goes, “Even the best fall down sometimes”. It made me realize that for once, it is okay to fail and learn from it. Kailan ba naging krimen ang bumagsak? Kailan ba naging bawal ang failures sa buhay? What is important is we learn from it and work harder.

Lalaban ako para sa pangarap, para sa pamilya, at para sa bayan.


To the one reading this:

If you’re one of the people who criticized me and my family since then and still do, you don’t have the right to judge me of my failures because first and foremost, you have your own set of failures. Second, you won’t have to lived my life and take that as a relief than a losing bet. Lastly, who are you to judged me in the midst of your imperfect life?

Don’t worry, I acknowledge my own failures and strive hard to be a better version of myself. If my failure gives you entertainment and a gossip worth-telling to the world, you are free to do so but remember, I won’t give you the benefit to enjoy my misery. I’m still going to fight for my dreams and emerge victorious. Just watch me in proving you wrong.  I’m quoting Miss Philippines Universe 2016, Maxine Medina’s message to her bashers, “3 words to my bashers: I love you”.

Movie Review: Ang Kwento Nating Dalawa ( The Story of us that never was) by Nestor Abrogena

Before I gonna give my review on this movie, I just wanna say that I’m so excited writing this one like super duper excited. HAHAHA. KTNXBYE. 


From one of the scenes of the movie. (Ctto)

The movie is about a young film maker and an aspiring writer who struggle to make something out of their relationship. In a world of cliché romantic stories, dramatic heartbreaks and almost love affairs , what makes a bond between two people different, unique and special? Is it the happy ending that matters or is it the journey that makes the entire experience worth all the pain? (Source: Ang Kwento Nating Dalawa Facebook Page)

When I saw the trailer of this film months ago, I was really intrigued what it is all about. The title “Ang Kwento Nating Dalawa” itself shouts mystery and it made me think possible cliché story scenarios running at the back of my mind until I watched the film one day and boom ~the feels bes! Tagos sa heart at buto~.

Personally, I was blown away by the film itself. I love everything about it. A lot of people commented about scenes that are quite dragging the story line but I have no issues about that. I love how this film speaks emotions even if there’s no dialogues being said by the lead characters to each other. It is truly an action speaks louder than words.

When I read blog reviews, I was amazed that the train scene (please see the photo above) was shot discreetly. I never expect that the camera was hidden inside the bag but the outcome, just wow. I could not put words into it and I’m aware that I’m exaggerating.

Cinematography wise, the team behind this film did a job well done.

Movie soundtrack is superb. I love how they use OPM songs that are really unique and it made me listen to it over and over again (courtesy of youtube). The songs are wisely chosen and it is something that gives more suave to the film. Walang Hanggan by Quest, Hanggang Kailan Kita Mahihintay by Paolo Valenciano, and Minahal Kita by Juliane are my personal favorites. The feels. I feel like listening to spoken words.

Movie Scenes. My personal favorite is the taxi ride of Isa and Sam going to Isa’s apartment. It speaks emotions even the silence itself speaks emotions. Quotang-quota sa feels talaga eh.

Movie Lines. A film of few words but speaks volumes. Below is my favorite line of the movie:

“Mahal mo?” 


“Mahal ka?”


Characters. I love the chemistry of Nicco Manalo and Emmanuelle Vera. Kudos to these two for portraying the characters of Isa and Sam very well.

Story line. I don’t want to spoil anything to those who haven’t watch it but all I can say, this is not your typical love story. The twist is mind blowing.

Overall impression. great movie for those who want to watch films that conveys a lot of emotions. Highly recommended.

For information about movie screenings and whereabouts, click here.

P.S. There is a sequel of this film entitled Tayo sa Huling Buwan ng Taon showing later this year.